On creativity

A while has passed since the last update. The reason for this is that I'm totally out of ideas and inspiration! 

I would like to make this blog into a collection of texts that discuss one theme at a time, but lately I haven't come up with any themes. 

So I might just write about creativity, writer's blocks and all that.

I'm a bad writer. I know I should write every day just to get a routine going on, but too often I forget. The last time I wrote something (other than blog texts) was two or three weeks ago, I think. It's way too long. If I'm ever going to make a living by writing, I can't keep skipping work like this. 

I mostly write at night. Or early in the morning. Or rather, the time I wake up, since I usually sleep late. I often get ideas just before falling asleep, and I have to start writing it down, sketching the sceneries and characters right that second - be it 4 am or not - because ideas escape me. Too many times the ideas keep me awake, and despite them being good ideas, I don't write them down, and by the next day when I'm having my morning tea and having a pen in my hand, the idea is gone.
 

Inspiration is a thing I value and I make it my first priority when it happens. I know I should get rid of being controlled by inspiration and instead just write all the time, but I actually like getting ideas in weird places at weird time and just being swallowed by the concentration that follows an idea. I need to work on an idea right the second it arrives. I skip school, work, and sleep just to work on a story. 

Too bad that ideas haven't been visiting me lately. Too much real life things and personal drama has been going on. It's like real life and inspiration can't coexist in my head. That kind of arrangement sucks, but I can't help it.